wanting a new family to adopt me

I have the most awful family. Allot of people say this but it is true. It started all when i was born. When i came out my mother said oh it is not a boy so take it back. That is about awful. You should be thankful that you can have kids and god blesses you with one. There is some women out there that cannt have childern. When i was child my father was always drunk or either he was always with some other women. I have a older sister she was treated just about the same. My mother tried to fracture her neck and my father just looked the other way. My mother was always yelling and taking sleeping pills and sleeping and not caring about anything. I got pushed down a flight of stairs by my mother because she thought i was making to much noise. My sister busted my mouth by hitting me with wood. I am all grown up now and live far away from my family. My mother had a stroke on my 21s birthday and blamed it all on everything but her weight and her blood pressure. She is slowly going down heal because she now has dementia and is in a nursing. my dad tried looking for her at home but he couldn't do it, it was to much for him. He now thinks i should come visit him and her but why. I told him i didn't have the money for a plane ticket so he was like whatever. He will not help me because my mother has wasted all his money he has worked for all these years. He has never came to visit me because my mother wouldn't let him or even given me anything because he listens to my mothers big mouth and lets her railroad all him. She says how height o jump and he says how far. I have had to call his church and let them now what is going on because he is 6 foot and weighs 102 pounds and he ended up in a hospital but does he care, not really. He called me and told how dare i call his church and do that to him. My family doesn't care about me and never will. When i ended up on drugs and almost killed my self they didn't help my dad said just throw her in jail. They are all alone now and just want to see what they can get of me. He acts like i can just give him money because i just have it lying around like nothing. When my mothers mother dyed she didn't care because she didn't want to take of her just thought of herself. So, if their any decent caring families out there that want to adopt me please let me now.
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Suzanne Nunn